Theres this guy.
My best friend to be exact.
I know I can rely on him for anything.
He knows all the right words to say.
Perfect.
In my eyes at least.
Maybe I care too much...
More than I should.
After seeing him after so long...
It was a special weekend
Almost as if there wasnt a care in the world.
I never wanted the weekend to end.
what does one do
when she starts to fall
...
fall in that one way she promised herself she would never do again...
:\
some hints...
some pointers
anything
i dont want things to change between us...
i dont want things to change at all
i want things the same
i feel if things were to ever proceed...
things would change completely
things wouldnt be how they should be
i care too much to lose you
i care too much
i think too much
this will remain a secret
im sure no one will ever see these words
but just to get it out there
ive fallen for you
even though i shouldnt have
i will do my best to hide it
i will do my best to keep things the same
i will be myself
and see where that goes.
i mean...
idk
i wished things were different
yet i wish them the same.
its hard to explain
all this boils down to the same thing
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING DO! -.-
ever since high school ive liked him
but we agreed to only be friends
to not ruin the relationship we have
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dot
dot
dot
and over the years
my feelings for him have grown secretly stronger
it was only until recently that ive noticed this
it makes me kinda scared
yet secure
yet uneasy
yet ...
i dont know.
im rambling.
rawr
its time to end this.
i might just keep going on though
who knows.
.......
nevermind.
he wants to see now
so i guess its time to end it.
so i guess.... til later...
~~kazi~~